I have nowhere to go, that's why I'm back here. Just this time.
There is no beauty in emptiness. It's consuming, like a black hole (although I don't really know much about them black holes,) and you can't do anything about it but let it eat you in defeat. A huge hole where your beating heart used to be, it cannot be satisfied. All those hopeless longing and bullshit just can't be satisfied.
But it oddly makes you feel alive. I don't know how but it does and with someone who knows absolutely no shit about giving up like me, emptiness, no matter how consuming, is bearable... for now at least.
I don't know why but it is. I don't know how long I can bear it, though. What can I do about it anyway. Nothing.
Anyway I found this somewhere:
Three Simple Rules in Life
1. If you do not go for what you want, you'll never have it.
2. If you do not ask, the answer will always be no.
3. If you do not step forward, you will always be in the same place.
Makes sense, huh.
Hehehe sabaw ampu I didn't make any sense. Maybe I should just reread my past rants and shit and let this whole blog slap me right on the face about how much of a pathetic person I am.
, as a friend wants to put it.